9.20 am. 2.30 pm is the results. if i say tt i'm not scared, i would be lying. cos the truth is i'm damn scared. i dun noe how i would react if i saw tt i did much worse for my o's than my prelims. 11 or 12 is ok. but if i scored more than tt, i noe i'll be devastated.
let's stop n tink abt my papers. did i screw any of them up? yes i did. my physics n lit. the rest i'm not so sure. cos it's my habit to screw things up at the critical moment.
stayed back after skul ytd. stayed back so tt i wun tink abt my results. when i go hum, i jus lie down n the sofa n watched tv for the whole nite. slept early too. n surprisingly, i managed to fall asleep almost immediately. but when i woke up tis morning, i'm like super freaked out. man .. results going to be out in a few hours time. how can i be feeling calm n serene? tt's ridiculous. hahas. i tink tis is also a very ridiculous entry as well. cos i'm like jus venting everything out.
if i scored 6 -7, cheers. i dun noe whether to stay or go. if i stay, it's like a waste of my results. but if i get more than tt, i'll surely stay. cos i tink ny is really a great place. friendly ppl ard, gd teachers as well. i like girls soccer very much too. last nite emiko jus called me up n asked me if i would be staying in soccer if i'm in ny. of cos i wan to stay. she also asked me whether i wan to take part in the soccer tournament. hahas. of cos i wan. but all tis is possible only if i get to stay in ny. cos if i go to some other jcs like nj, there's no girls soccer. n i noe tt i'll be damn out of place cos i dun noe wad else to join. but wad if i get more than 15, haiz .. den tt would mean gdbye ny. but i dun wan tt to happen. i wan to stay in ny ..
argghhh .. tis is so damn frustrating.
hmm. tt's all for today's venting. maybe i shall update after i get back my results. if i did well. if not, i tink i shall not update.
{the riddle of red}
