i think it's really sad. cos i tread home every night, feeling snappy, tired, touchy n irritable, ready to snap at any person who attempts to ask me qns or talk to me. then after gobbling down my dinner, n to reward myself, a small cup of chocolate chip ice cream, i sit down at the small table in the living room, n do my hw. then, as i do my hw, i'll feel guilty for snapping at my sis for attempting to ask me some maths qn, n feel bad for almost ignoring my mum. cos i jus murmured short replies.
then, i feel really bad. n i would tell myself not to be like tt tmr, n to treat them nicer.
but tmr, i still do the same things. althou i tink, or i hope, it's to a much smaller extent.
so i promise myself, next week will be different. thou i still feel sore abt missing my mac breakfast every thurs morning. cos it's this kind of things tt keeps me going. u noe, like replenish my carbo n a little bit of fats. but now even this kind of little little treat is taken away from me. arghhhhh.
n it's really really sad. tt i hav to constantly remind myself tt hey, dun be so bad. cos after all, it will be awkward if things continue to be like tt. but it's really sad. tt we now ask not because we want, but it becomes more of an act of courtesy to do so.
{the riddle of red}
